Why?

I know so many people that are hurting. Family, friends, random people that I don't even know that well. I'm one of those hurting people. I know cutters, suicidal people, depressed people, anxious people, all sorts of people with different problems struggling to make it through the day without a breakdown.
It kills me to see my friends and family hurting. It hurts me to see people that I don't even know having issues. The one thing that I do know: it happens for a reason. That phrase is said a lot and a lot of people think that it is just a cliche. I have learned that it's not. I wouldn't be as strong as I am today without the hardships that I went through.
We all just need to break through what ever it is that is holding us back because we are all beautiful and we all have a purpose that we might not see yet. I promise you, it's there.

This is truth

Okay, so I finally decided what I'm going to make my blog about. Being different. It's amazing, it's awful, it's lonely, but it's the best thing in the world. Being different doesn't just mean liking different things than the rest of the world. I'm not talking about being a hipster. (Which is perfectly alright.) I'm talking about the outcasts, the misfits, the rebels, the depressed, the cutters, the anxious, the sick, etc., etc. I'm not excluding the people who like different things than the current trend. That used to be the only thing that I worried about, and it can be pretty lonely sometimes, too.

Anyway, being different is perfectly normal. (Irony, I love it.) My point is, we're all different in some way or another. I personally have a lot of qualities that set me apart from others, and they aren't all very good. I have no doubt that there are other people like me out there, but I can't seem to find anyone who can really relate to me. I know that a lot of other people feel the same way. That is why I'm saying that we are NOT alone; no matter how lonely we feel, there is always someone there that is willing to help us out.

Depression is awful. That is so so true, but we can't let it define us. We might have depression, but it is not allowed to have us. We can be stronger than any depression. We just need to be able to believe that. That's where the problem starts isn't it? I have a hard time believing anything positive that I tell myself, but I'm going to fix that and this is the start.

This is the start to a new, happier me. A me that overcomes the negative thoughts. A me that is happy with how she looks. A me that cares about herself. A me that is OKAY. I'm going to reinvent myself. This is only the beginning.

And Then there's that...

Okay so we've talked about, "It happens." I just wish I could figure out why. I've honestly been thinking about this a lot. Why do bad things happen over and over again? It doesn't make sense to me. I mean, I know that if bad things didn't happen we couldn't experience joy or really any emotions, but why do bad things happen so often? It's pretty awful when you think about it.

It Happens.

That's my new favorite saying: It Happens. This pretty much describes life. Stuff happens that you can't control, and you have to move past it. I think that no matter how hard it gets, we can all accomplish this. Life sometimes sucks. BAD. But, all of us can push past our difficulties and bring success to the world.

Monologues and More Acting.

I'm in drama class at school. I love it; it's the best part of my day. We have done improv, we've written skits, we've been directors, and now we are working on monologues. I am so excited right now. I have so many great ideas for the monologue that I'm going to have to write.
For now, I'm doing prewritten monologues. The first one that I'm doing is from Alladin. It's the part when the Genie comes out of the lamp. I'm going to act like never before and have fun doing it.

So...Life huh?

So I have recently decided what I want to do with me life. I want to be a journalist. Maybe a travel or fashion journalist, or both. My school has been putting a lot of pressure on future plans, and I had no idea what I wanted before, but now this just feels good. I may be young, but I have ambition now.

New school; New Life

So I'm in a new school this year. I moved, and now I know basically nothing about anything. The school is way more advanced than my old one. Luckily, I'm starting to open up and I'm making friends. I have people to eat lunch and have fun with. Although, I live an hour outside of the town I'm going to school in. Everything that my family wants to do (church, school, movies) is all an hour away. It pretty much sucks. Anyway I'm starting this up again which I keep saying, but yeah.